There was a time in my life when getting up every morning and trying to be happy was next to impossible. Everything around me seemed gloomy and I wasn't able to laugh so hard that it would hurt. I won't say that I was depressed, that would be a very serious term. I would rather say it was somewhere between unhappiness and depression. I would sit hours doing facebook looking at other people's achievements, photos, travelogues which would end up making me even more sad. Sometimes I would listen to music but would not prefer to sing along or get up and dance at a hip hop number. There were days when I saw old photos, re read chats but never typed those old friends a "Hi". I would go to office do my work, I won't say I did any fatal errors there but didn't actually enjoy it as much as I do now. All this made me a little gloomy and perhaps I was losing my confidence. One fine day I was browsing the Internet and saw some article about positive thinking. That actually made me realise that I did not feel happy and the very first step was to accept that feeling. And when I tried to analyse I realised there was no specific reason for me to behave like that. Sure my life wasn't perfect but it wasn't a failure either, I knew people with more troubles. That article on positive thinking that I had come across said that if you have food to eat, a roof above your head, a job to pay your bills and no fatal diseases that are incurable then you have all the reasons to be happy! I realised that my reason to be gloomy and upset was that I cared too much and took certain things seriously that should be ignored. That often left me stressed out, loosing enthusiasm and vigour.
So, the first thing I decided to
do before it was too late was to remain active and pick up something nice that
lifts my spirit and leaves me cheering. Moreover as boredom and idleness
actually are the root cause of all human problems I decided to kill them
forever. I took small steps at a time and started with making coffee in the
morning. So, instead of getting up late and having my breakfast in front of the
television without actually watching it, I watched the milk boil for me to add
sugar and coffee. If my coffee was perfect then the very first task in the
morning was perfect and if nothing else turned out to be right that day then at
least I had my perfect morning coffee to think about. Small things do matter, that’s
why it's essential to be a god of them. The next goal was to organise stuffs
that not only made me happy after doing it but was kind of a stress buster. I
started with my desktop, it had like 100 icons most of it unnecessary temporary
files. I sat down and properly arranged them reducing it by one fourth. Sounds
small but it was a clutter of years and gave me a sense of satisfaction. So, I
was encouraged to do similar activities. I installed the softwares that I was
planning to since a year. I had three pendrives, two of them 16gb and one 32
gb. All packed with stuffs that weren't copied to my laptop which had one drive
completely empty! Sounds crazy isn't it, but happens right? So, I copied all of
it to my laptop and made room for more data to come in. After all the whole
world is about data, big data and information! I then realised I had some five
watches and was using only two of them, reason being a damaged band or a
battery drain out. So, I went to the service centre and got all of them
repaired. It might sound silly to you but more choices mean more happiness. Next
I heard about a charity program in the radio about donating unused clothes to
the poor. I looked at my closet that had actually more number of unused stuffs
than used ones. So, I pulled out all the clothes that I had either forgotten
about or had no suitable place to wear. Believe me there was a plenty of it. I
asked my friends and family to do the same. They enjoyed the activity too and
we decided to go in person and gift it to the poor. And when that happened we
actually realised why it is called "The joy of giving". It was their
smiles that brought in the true happiness.
Now I read more and read till the
end. I sing along when I listen to music. My personal blog is more active than
it used to be those days. I am more regular in the Toastmaster speech club. I
cook more often. I can now laugh at silly jokes and crack one myself too. I can
now be happy and spread happiness because I find it in the simple pleasures of
life.
Lovely heart-touching narrative.. Waiting for more :)
ReplyDelete